Thursday, September 13, 2007

Dreams do come true


This is not my typical Retro Friday. I've been feeling a bit blue for all of you who are waiting on your referral. Simply put my heart aches for all of you. I just can't seem to shake it. You've all been so heavy on my mind. I feel your pain during this suffocating wait. I know how badly you all want to be mommies. I did too. No, my wait was not nearly as long as what you all are experiencing. True. But it wouldn't have mattered if it were half the wait. It was still long. One day seemed an eternity. There has been a lot of talk about the unhealthy babies from China. I want you all to see how very healthy my little "twinkies" were. Yes, they both had severe ear infections and colds, but nothing we weren't able to clear up with some antibiotics and cold meds. We never once would have considered "returning" them. They were our children. We would persevere. We after all were a family. That's all we ever wanted. A family. My family. I just wanted you all to know that dreams do come true. When I came across this picture tonight it was as if time had stopped. I had a flash back and found myself crying and smiling. I remember the moment I took that picture. We were in our hotel room in Nanning at the Majestic Hotel. We had only had the babies 2 days. Poor little Katie could barely sit up. This was one of the rare occasions where Abbey was not crying. I nudged fh and said "look honey, remember the bracelet with the bells Katie came with". She used to hold her arms up in the air and shake them. It was the sweetest thing I've ever seen in my life. They were so damn precious. I reached out and grabbed fh's hand. This was what and why we waited. Yes, we too had our bumps and I was more than angry that we were being jerked around and lied to. But, all was quickly forgotten once they placed these gorgeous healthy little girls in our arms. I couldn't stop crying. I was where you all are. Trust me. You will understand. I am so in love with these little people. They are my everything.

I love you all.

35 comments:

Lori said...

Thanks.

Isabella's Mommy & Daddy said...

Thank you for caring so much...
You are such an amazing lady.. I am so honored to have met you..
Your girls are adorable.. I see the love you have for them... I can not wait to hold little Isabella..
Once again.. thanks for all the inspiration that you give to all of us in waiting..
Giant Hugs Girly..
Kim

Jeter Mama said...

what a sweet post!

LaLa said...

you are so right...it just all melts away once you are holding tight to the dream you have had for so long! Great pic : )

kerri said...

Beautiful post.
Hold tight to your dreams.....

eggrolls and chopsticks said...

Oh, they were, well still are, just beautiful.
Such a touching post and oh so true.

secret agent said...

boo hoo...... poor me.......
you're a good friend putting up with all my whining

Sophie's Mom said...

Awe... they were chunky lil monkeys! Adorable, and how sweet are you to think of those waiting. I have to work really hard at being thoughtful like that, it seems to come naturally for you.

The message is right - it is all worth it. (and I only got one, skinny baby!) ;)

A Special Family said...

They are simply beautiful! Dreams do come true, eventually....Sigh!

Salome's Mom said...

I am having a very hard day today. Thank you for posting this, you are such a caring person. Your empathy really touches me.

Your girls are lovely and you just reminded me that we are a family and we will persevere.

Thank you,
Hugs

Trenting said...

Your lovely ladies are absolutely GORGEOUS! looking at those faces will make your days much brighter..trust me..

DAVID AND AMY VENN'S WEBSITE said...

How very touching!!

Jewels of My Heart said...

Katie and Abbey are so beautiful. What little miracles. I love this post. Such words of truth and wisdom. Every thing you said rings true of my heart as well. We all have been there.... once you hold your little one (or little ones for some) in your arms all the anguish truly fades away. As heartwrenching and overwhelming as it can be, the heartache pales in comparison to the joy that will forever overflow from your heart as you spend each day with your child.
God's Speed

redmaryjanes said...

Rony,
Besides the fact that you are a thrillride, this is why it's so wonderful that you are blogging a part of all of this. You keep us going. Watching your girls completely keeps my faith that this really will happen and I just have to hang in there.
I adore you. Truly, you make me not just smile, but completely bust up. I love your comments. Really, it would be so quiet out here without you.

Beverly said...

How cute they look in the picture.

Beverly

mommy24treasures said...

sweet sweet thoughts and beautiful girls. Yes every bit of stressful paperwork, every hoop you jump through and every long minute you wait is taking you to your piece of paradise...

T & R McGrath said...

Your post made me cried. It really touched me.

Your girls are beautiful!

Ms. Dragonfly said...

you are a little fairy sprinkling love on us all....
oh the raindrops, the lemon drops, the gum drops, oh what a day it will be, it will be, standing outside with my mouth open wide. ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ahhhh
(dunno wy I just quoted that song.. pass the duchie on the let hand side...)

mexican chopsticks said...

Like I said before "You are a very lucky Mommy, you get to have 4 arms around you and two kisses at the same time!"
They are so cute, THEN and NOW.

Becky

Lisa M. said...

I will pay it forward when I get my baby girl I promise. Thanks for the kindness. Damn, they are right, you are NICE!

nikki said...

My heart breaks too for all my friends (those I've met and those I only know here in bloggerland) who are waiting for their sweet, little ones.

Your girls are little angels...love that picture. It is amazing how the days just dragged on while waiting for them and now it just FLIIIES!
(and the reality is even better than the dream could ever be. That's the BEST part.)

Nancy said...

Thanks for giving a sliver of light in this dark, dark tunnel.

The girls were, and still are so beautiful.

Lilly said...

Thank you for this Rony. Your girls are aboslutely beautiful beyond words. You are so blessed to have them, and they are blessed to have such a wonderful mommy and daddy!

cougchick said...

Rony, you are the best cheerleader evvah. Keepin the faith here in my heart...

Jonni, John & Sofia said...

Okay, now the tears are flowing. I just love your post about Abbey & Katie and the picture just melts my heart. There is no better feeling than when your baby (babies) are put in your arms. I agree with Lilly, what a wonderful family you have. :)

Love,
Jonni

DAVID AND AMY VENN'S WEBSITE said...

Hey, I'm headed your way the first weekend in October. Where in Virginia do you live?...was thinkin' I might want to stalk you...ha ha
My email is venable777@comcast.net
Amy

jennifer said...

Thanks for the sweet post, and for helping us keep our eye on the prize! Those girls are adorable.

crazylady said...

Somethings (or someone) are worth the wait.
As with most lessons in life, we only see the lesson after the test is over.

Glad we're done with that.
Well, we're just learning new lessons now.
Luv ya

Truly Blessed said...

Oh, I so can relate to what you said.

When I read the agonizing posts of parents who are still waiting after nearly two years, my heart hurts.

I want to say that all of the pain will go away when you are holding YOUR daughter, and that it will all have been worth it. I also want to say that when you are holding YOUR daughter, you won't have eyes for any other baby in the world, and that if you'd had your way, and the wait had been any shorter, then you wouldn't be holding this baby..you'd be holding another and that would be so wrong.

However, I can't say those things, because they're not understood. Only time (and the referral of the baby that was meant to be theirs) will help them understand.

It IS worth it. The wait is hell, but it IS worth it!

Great post, Rony!

Mark & Michelle said...

I know that everyone says it will be worth the wait - and I don't doubt that for one second (or I wouldn't still be in this ever extending line), but I can't wait to find that out for myself...

It just can't come soon enough.

Steffie B. said...

Love you too girl....there are days that I'm not sure I'll make it waiting for this last daughter....but if it is meant to be, it will be!

Smoooooch....

hausfrau said...

cutest photo, sweetest post.

deepest thanks!!!

Isabella's Mommy & Daddy said...

Where have you been...
Miss ya girly..
Kim

Christine said...

You are helping us through the wait by sharing your girls and thoughts on how to cope. We need to know it can and will happen... thanks....

Kathryn said...

What a sweet post. What beautiful little girls!!! Your words are so kind and heartfelt. Can't wait to one day see my little girl.
Sincerely,
Kathryn